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July 26th, 2007

02:32 pm - *Private Entry* What the hell seems to be going on in this town? I just got word that Philip was in a car wreck.. and you want to know how I found out?! Livejournal! This is b.s. if I've ever heard of it! I'm so upset right now... I can't think. I realize it's been two days since I last saw him, but I just figured he'd stayed over at the office or something because of work. No one had the respect to call me. I'm so hurt over this, but I'm sure Philip will be okay. I already stopped in to see him and brought him balloons and flowers. I feel absolutely terrible, he won't forgive me and he'll hate me forever because I wasn't there... I may be single before you know it. :( Nik *Private Entry* Current Mood: depressed

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June 7th, 2007

04:52 pm - Spur of the moment.... Sometimes I like to be spontanious... sometimes it can be a great idea, others it's not such a great idea. Although I have known about this "spur of the moment trip" it's still spontanious. I asked Philip to go with me and after much debate, he decided to go. I feel like I pressured him to come with me and he's pry not having a great time. I've spent a lot of time with him. We played some racket ball, pool, shuffle board, poker and other various gambling games, and even played a little in the bedroom, but I won't get into any details as far as that goes... Anyway, since I feel that he doesn't like the trip, tonight I'm hoping to do something special with him. I requested a romantic dinner to be held in our room and maybe afterwards, go to the ball room and dance a few slow dances with him. But, like always, my plans won't work out the way I hope. I'm hopelessly romantic and can't do anything special for someone I care so much about. I'm hoping I can turn this trip around, since it's almost over... traveling all around the globe in like a few weeks can take a toll. It's been non-stop... Tonight we'll relax and have a good time... at least that's what I'm hoping. Philip, I'm sorry if I made this trip a crappy one so far, I hope to make it up to you... if that's at all possible. Nik P.S. Philip, Billie sent me an e-mail saying you posted a pic of me online... she joked about me being fat... if I go missing, I'm pry at the gym... Current Location: Coast of India Current Mood: blah

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May 20th, 2007

11:28 am - All I can say is this... Life is crazy... just when you thought you were all alone, there's always someone there to help support you... Thank you Philip. Current Mood: calm

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May 19th, 2007

10:59 am - I missed a lot I guess... So I went to the state capital this past month and such to be with my Aunt Vivian who stood up and spoke out to the state government about Salem... such a wonderful town when it wants to be. When I came back I met up with Billie and she filled me in one the goings on while I was away.. because let's face it, Salem's not that boring... Apparently, people were held hostage, Abby died, people are in the hospital... it's just pure madness... And the police did nothing? I think I'm going to tell Aunt Viv and have her get on the case... she'll know what to do and make things better... let's hope she has some answers because I'm sure she'll have questions. And what makes it even worse, is Phil skipped town... just like I did. He never said a word to me or called, but then again, I didn't call him either. But I think we need to get together and talk about somethings. I hope he doesn't hate me. :-\ Nik Current Mood: confused

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April 7th, 2007

10:44 am - Private Entry... People are making me sick. I'm very aggravated by a few people as of late. Let's start with the obvious, Billie. She is planning on leaving town for whatever reason, I don't really care. What I'm really upset is that she's running out on another guy or whatever. She ran out on me to be with Eric and now she's running away from Eric... I don't know what the hell is going on with her right now.... like, come on! Snap out of it! ...*sigh*.... Philip has been spending more time with Maddie and Cassie who is in the hospital I hear or something like that. That doesn't really bother me, but I hate to sound spoiled, but I need to be around someone. I can't be alone all the time, it begins to bother me. I'm getting old and I guess no one wants to be around this old fart anymore. If you can't beat em' join em'... so, that brings me to my next point... I may be going to the state capital to be with Aunt Vivian. I didn't tell Philip yet because I was unsure if I was actually going to go, but I should go.... Phil found out through Vivian's post on lj... I feel kinda bad now. I should have said something to him first. He needs to spend time with his little girl, because I know how important she is to him. Next point, speaking of little girls.... :-\ My little girl, who I haven't seen yet, must be a strong little girl. I may stop by and see her, depending on whether or not they all left town yet... it's rediculious.... This whole town is just rediculous.... Goodness, I need a vacation! *Private Entry* Current Mood: aggravated

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March 19th, 2007

09:47 pm - Holy Mother of Pearl.... So my future ex-wife decided to run out on me at the wedding. No surprise there. Now she's missing. Pry because she doesn't want to show her face around town. Damn, I guess I should have said that to Roman today. I get called down into the station and well, actually, I was escorted down there to answer questions. It seemed like no matter what my answer was, he was implying that I was lying and whatever I said was a complete lie. So just so everyone is squared away, I didn't do it. Everyone knows what happened at the wedding and the last few parts of it. Billie ran off to find Eric, I fainted, Phil was late stopping the wedding because Billie already did that for him and I went home.... with Phil. End of story. I know nothing of anyone's where-a-bouts for the past three days since the wedding, nor do I care. I take that back... I do care where Billie and my child are, but I'm sure she's taking care of them both right now... She's a former ISA officer so I mean, she's got to be able to think about how to get out of a sticky situation. Before you know it she'll be back in town ready to go, unless, she's still in town. God only knows whether I'll be going to jail anytime soon.... Just when I thought my life couldn't sink any lower.... life sucks! Current Mood: pissed off

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March 16th, 2007

03:35 pm - *1/2 Private 1/2 Public* *Private Part* So the wedding's tomorrow and I absolutely know that Billie doesn't want to go through with it. I on the other hand, feel I must...er... we must. For the sake of my child, I will do anything for my child and if that means making myself suffer a little, so what. Billie should feel the same. If she doesn't want to stay together for the sake of our child, shame on her. Baby's need their fathers, (and mothers, both parents) to know they have support, love, and attention. It's hard raising a baby by yourself. If she wants to go at it herself, screw that. She's being selfish and egotistical. Anyway, whatever happens tomorrow, someone's going to suffer. *Public* The wedding's tomorrow. Gee, can't wait for this. I'm no longer going to be single, a bachlor, lonely... I'll have Billie by my side and we will be a family. I've waited my whole life to have a normal life and be able to start a family of my own. I've booked the honeymoon. I changed my mind about Hawaii. I've got something better. But it's a surprise, so I won't tell you here. Ok, so... let's see. There's a problem with this wedding. I've been so busy trying to find the perfect honeymoon, getting the tux, etc and forgot to find myself a best man. I have a few ideas as to who I want to ask... but I don't think he'd accept. All I can do is ask I guess. When am I going to find the time to do this? The wedding's tomorrow and we have to have a tux ready for him! That is... if he says yes. *sigh* Stupid problems. Nik Current Mood: angry

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March 10th, 2007

12:45 pm - *Private Entry* Oh sweet Jesus am I in trouble. I'm about to marry someone that I feel doesn't love me anymore. I'm supposed to be getting married very soon and I haven't spent any time with the woman I "love". I still think she's in love with Eric. I have nothing to really base this on, it's just when you're going to get married to someone, usually you spend every day together and such. This hasn't happened since I found out she was putting those vitamins/straightening pills in my food and such. I feel sorta bad about all that, and over reacting. It was stupid of me to do that. Anyway, live moves on and let me tell you, it has moved on. My dad returned to Salem and I haven't even seen him all that often either. (Not that I'd want to...) It would be nice to have a normal family for once... one of the questions on my mind is, Where is my mother!? We seemed to patch things up there for a while, but then she left town again. People come and go so quickly around here, it's rediculous. Maybe I should just leave town with Billie after the wedding. I'm trying to do my part for the wedding, I'm booking a honeymoon as I type... something nice, warmer, fun... Hawaii would be nice. But I don't know. How can I think of spending the rest of my life with someone who would rather be with someone else? Besides that there's something else that's bothering me... Recently, I have gained some knowledge about my past which I repressed into my self conscious or something... I totally forgot about what happened and part of me feels terrible, but it's in the past. Philip doesn't want everyone to know what happened between us to get around, well, to be honest, I would assume every single male has done something with another guy... it's just natural. But that's just a theory. My father took pictures of us and is now blackmailing Philip for whatever reason. Well actually, from what Philip told me, it's EJ that's doing that since he bought those pics from my father. But I dont care what's going on between Philip and anyone. I just need to focus on this wedding that obviously shouldn't be going on... if it wasn't for our unborn child, it wouldn't be. I can't let my child grow up without his parents. God knows I did, and it hurt a little, no offense Aunt Viv. I just wanted a normal childhood, spending time with my parents. So here's to trying to be a better father to whoever Billie brings into this world... *sigh* Nik *Private Entry* Current Location: Alamain Mansion Current Mood: depressed

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January 15th, 2007

12:52 pm - All's well, that end's not so well... maybe. Where do I begin? Let's start with New Year's eve... Billie and I went to the party and left shortly afterwards to see my Aunt who we found out left the hospital moments earlier. After I flipped out because I thought she had died or something serious like that. People get lost at the hospital everyday. Anyway to move this story along.... Billie and I slept together. It was the most romantic and special-est of all my nights in Salem... that is... until something bad happened between us. After we (excuse me for stealing a line from a movie) hopped on the good foot and did the bad thing, I wanted some ice cream. She got all energetic and jumped out of bed and told me to stay there. So I stayed for a little bit unsure of what just happened. She ran out of the room and down to the kitchen... I got up and put on my pajama pants, half naked I wanted down to the kitchen. That's what I saw her. She must have been snooping in my medicine cabinet. She was taking my vitamins and putting one in the ice cream. After I flipped out because I though she was drugging me I noticed they were my vitamins. But... why slip them into my ice cream?! Granted I did forget to take them that day and I have no idea why she would be so concerned with my health. Unless.... hmm.... things are better left unsaid until I can talk to a few people right now I guess... People have somethings they need to fill me in on asap! NIK Current Mood: annoyed

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December 22nd, 2006

12:09 am - A little Recap.... So it's been a very long while since updating and I feel horrible about that. Part of it wasn't my fault. I was in the hospital for quite a bit of time. Here's the leading events up til my visit in the hospital... I was telling Viv that I really needed dropped off in town and since she was going into town that she could give me a ride.... So I ended up getting into the car all anxious to see "Jeanna".... Little did I know that we were going to wreck... My aunt Vivian has been in a coma for some time now. I hope she wakes up soon. As for after the wreck... Jeanna found out that I was in a car wreck and stayed with me most of the time, checking in to see if I was ok and all that stuff... I tell, ya, she really cares and I care a great deal for her. She has changed me and I'm so proud to have her in my life. I'm hoping everything goes well for us in the next few months and such.... Since I just got out of the hospital not too long ago I need to go crazy and do something I have never done before... but what!? Well, I better go, it's almost time for the Salem New Year's Ball.... Hope it's a blast! Catch ya later!! Nik Current Mood: anxious

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